Old Thoughts

At the moment I am trying to find a powerpoint that I did in USA before coming home.  It was about Genetics but that was irrelevant.  The point is, I took out the external hard drive and was looking through it.  I found something that I had forgotten.  It is a poem that Evan wrote when he was 5.  It was a year after Frank had died.  It still makes me tear up. 

For My Brother

You will be my brother

You will be sitting on my shoulder

When you will be presented

Dead onto the Gods of your soul

That will know you.

So, you will be with me always

Always alive

You and I.

Evan Begg 10-05-04

I find it amazing how accurately kids will express themselves at times.  Actually quite a lot is making me tear up at the moment.  It is likely that I have too much to do in the next few weeks and that the stress level at work is enormous.  I am working on an alternate dive for the kids.  I am trying to get Townsville organized and there are personnel issues that I have to deal with as well.  Other than that work is quiet. 

 

We are going to have a Christmas BBQ and Carolling.  It is a good idea to get all Levi's friends together before we leave.  It does remind me a lot of this year and Frankie wanting so much to stay up but just not quite making it that far!

Look at this sweet curly haired kid.  Last night Levi was back on the topic of death which is also a little hard to take at times.  He said;

"Mum, you are going to die before me, but you won't be lonely in heaven waiting for me, because Frankie will look after you until I get there.  Then we can all be together!"

It is a lovely thought.  I hope it works that way.  I hope it's not for a long time.  I hope some one's looking after Frankie now until I get there.  It seems like so long ago.  And it still feels like today.