45 Today

Today is my birthday.  I had a busy non-birthday day.  I went to work early because I had to go to the coast again.  For a birthday it was kind of quiet.  I worked and Levi went to school.  He was cranky when I picked him up because I wouldn't buy him a slushy.  He moaned a bit about it but was fine by the time I got home.  That was about the whole of it. 

I have been thinking about other birthdays.  I think it's a good idea to do that on your birthday.  To see where you have been.

At 5, I was in USA

At 15, I was at High School, It was the year that I learned that I was stronger than I ever believed that I could be.  It was the year that I learned how to trust myself before trusting anyone. 

At 25, I was relearning that lesson.  Life once again was showing me that no matter how weak you think you are, you are stronger than you can believe.  It was the beginning of learning that you can indeed trust other people as well as yourself, so long as you never forget the trust in yourself.

At 35, I learned that no matter how much it hurt when it happens to you, it hurts that much more when things happen to those you love.  It was the year that I realized that Frankie had something that I should be very afraid of.  It was the first year of real sickness for him.  It was the year of escalating drug trials.

At 45, I am still learning.  Levi coughs in the background as I type.  His asthma has flared again, probably in response to a minor illness.  The illness is likely in response to his being way too tired and getting to the end of term.  It isn't a scary cough and in a few days it will disappear again.  Tomorrow night we do the night dive with the Shark Bait Kids and in less than a fortnight, Levi and I will be on holidays and in USA. 

I wonder where I'll be in 10 more years!