Blogger is being a pain in the bum again. I am never sure if it is them or if it is our Internet. Either way, loading photos has become extraordinarily painful and slow. I am finding myself less on the computer and more getting things organized to move to USA. In fact, I am pretty sure that Levi has been on the computer more than I have in the last week or so. I am feeling a myriad of emotions but mostly I am just feeling exhausted. I wake up and go to sleep exhausted, but I am thinking that this will only be for a finite time and then it will all settle down again. Levi is very very excited, but is showing signs of the stress as well. He is needing more time to go to sleep at night and after one frustrating night I went in and discovered that he had needed to be guarded by his wonderful stuffed dogs; Icy and Kiedy. He had propped them up on the edges of the bed. even in his sleep he has a slightly stressed expression on his face. I am thinking that it will make him stronger in the long run but is a bit of a struggle now!
He is seeking out small places to put himself in the day time and covering himself in blankets. He is doing what needs to be done to ground himself and keep his emotions where they should be. Mostly he is excited but I think sometimes he is a bit scared; at least nervous anyway. Truthfully that is what I am feeling too. I see his stress in the toys he plays with and the way he interacts. he is building and drawing dragons to protect 'people' and on a couple of mornings built this paper dragon that is the size of the desk. It is complicated and intricate and designed to 'be strong and look after people if they are scared'. I am sure that he is doing exactly that! There are some live dragons around now too! There are baby Water Dragons at the creek. Hundreds of them! They scurry away from the car as you drive past and sun themselves on the rocks. It is a joy to watch them!
Blogger is being a pain in the bum again. I am never sure if it is them or if it is our Internet. Either way, loading photos has become extraordinarily painful and slow. I am finding myself less on the computer and more getting things organized to move to USA. In fact, I am pretty sure that Levi has been on the computer more than I have in the last week or so. I am feeling a myriad of emotions but mostly I am just feeling exhausted. I wake up and go to sleep exhausted, but I am thinking that this will only be for a finite time and then it will all settle down again. Levi is very very excited, but is showing signs of the stress as well. He is needing more time to go to sleep at night and after one frustrating night I went in and discovered that he had needed to be guarded by his wonderful stuffed dogs; Icy and Kiedy. He had propped them up on the edges of the bed. even in his sleep he has a slightly stressed expression on his face. I am thinking that it will make him stronger in the long run but is a bit of a struggle now! 
He is seeking out small places to put himself in the day time and covering himself in blankets. He is doing what needs to be done to ground himself and keep his emotions where they should be. Mostly he is excited but I think sometimes he is a bit scared; at least nervous anyway. Truthfully that is what I am feeling too. I see his stress in the toys he plays with and the way he interacts. he is building and drawing dragons to protect 'people' and on a couple of mornings built this paper dragon that is the size of the desk. It is complicated and intricate and designed to 'be strong and look after people if they are scared'. I am sure that he is doing exactly that! There are some live dragons around now too! There are baby Water Dragons at the creek. Hundreds of them! They scurry away from the car as you drive past and sun themselves on the rocks. It is a joy to watch them!
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