Still Hot

 Another day, another fever!!  This is the longest freaking fever that I have ever had to deal with.  We are on about day 4 and still the fever persists.  Actually it isn't a bad illness  to have to deal with because with the medication on board, he can still play and enjoy his friends but there is a limit.  A limit of about three hours.  You can see it in his eyes, even when he is coping and he has just started having his;

"eyes leak but I'm not crying Mum because I'm not sad"

We had another fun day of playing, first at Pine Rivers park again and then the kids wanted a fire down at the creek again.  They love just poking at fire and it is an easy thing to do, especially since the big floods in January deposited enormous amounts of driftwood that is now perfectly dry and high above the water line.

Levi is in his favourite shirt.  He wears it about every other day and any time that it is clean.  It is another shirt that grips my heart because his brother loved it too.  Levi is now in the last of Frankie's shirts.  Frank was just three when he died but the prednisone saw him increasing in size, sometimes by a size a week!  It meant that keeping him in cute shirts was an endless task.  After these shirts we just put him in hospital gowns, because it was too hard to get to all his lines in a Tshirt and Frankie didn't care.  I see Frank at times when Levi wears these shirts but I love that they both have the same favourite shirt.

 At the creek, as the boys played, I sat and enjoyed the moment.  There was peace in it all.  The boys playing happily and the creek doing what it had been doing for countless years; years before I was born, perhaps even years before Brisbane existed.  The creek has changed course even in the last few months and it is fun to watch it happen.  I feel trapped sometimes here but the creek can make it worth it all, just by being somewhere that you can go and talk to yourself, talk to God and sometimes even find answers