Thursday, May 19, 2011

Changing Direction

Not much to report today.  It has been a fairly momentous day for me because I changed directions but I can't really talk about it at all so just know that it is changing and it will be better.  Levi has been soft and snuggly all day, I think because we are both fighting off some sort of virus.  My mind is in a mess, what with making big decisions and this time of year it has been all muddled up.  On top of that, I think every fragile kid on my caseload at the moment is in hospital.  OK that is an exaggeration but there are certainly more than I want to have there (which would be zero).  It always puts me on edge a little because I can so completely see myself in that position.

 I am doing better sleeping again, and I am starting to pull out.  I can feel it. The aching rawness of it all is pulling away again and once again I can start to see the light.  That dim light way over there at the end of the tunnel.  I am not fixed but I am getting to where I can start pretending that I am again! 

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