Father's Day

Today we played board games and not a lot else. It's Father's day here and I find that it isn't a day that I really think of my Dad much. Dad didn't really celebrate things like that and it has translated into being a fairly non traumatic day, now that he is dead. I mean I miss him, but not more today than other days. I think that I am lucky like that. the days I remember Dad are more distant for me as I was not living in the same country for years before he died and only moved home after he had died. The days that I miss my Dad are the days that Levi does something very Don-like or wants an explanation that only Don could really give him. Levi already has concepts particularly in mathematics, that I am struggling to understand. My mind just doesn't work that way. He just has naturally what I could only wish for. But I think that is what it all comes down to.

What do you really wish for?

I wish they had more time together. That is what I really miss. I miss time that could have been. I miss how happy Levi would have made Dad and vice versa. I miss the ability that my father had to simplify explanations without feeling like you are an idiot, esp with children. It is a rare ability.

Levi called Robert today to wish him Happy Father's Day even though it isn't Father's day in USA. Robert has a message on his phone, "I can't take your call right now.....". Levi got to the message and then is sitting in the back of the car with the phone doing nothing. I know that I have a great international call rate but it is a bit much to let him sit there with an open line.

"What are you doing"

"Dad said he couldn't take my call right now, but it's OK, I am happy to wait for him!"

He is very sweet!

Veiled Discrimination

Levi slept through the night last night for the first time in weeks. There was no midnight crying or pain. He just slept the whole night peacefully. I think that tonight will be the big test, but I have high hopes now. He is sleeping very quietly in there now.

Tomorrow is the Father's day event at Levi's school. I am having trouble with the discrimination that is involved here. I am a little annoyed by the whole thing. The Mother's day event was at 1.30pm on a Thursday. We got about a weeks notice only. The Father's day event is 5 - 6 pm also on a Thursday. They get two weeks notice. Now I might be reading a little too much into all of this, but it seems to me that the implication of these times is that Mum stays home and looks after the kids and is therefore available at short notice in the middle of the day. For Dad however, the implication is that he works and needs more notice to alter his schedule, even if only to get home a little earlier that day. Consequently, I missed the Mother's day thing because there was no way on earth I could change my schedule with that little notice.

Anyway, Mikey is going to rock along to be the random Father for Levi at the afternoon tea and then we will all go out for dinner, somewhere really ritzy.....like Sizzler. Levi is very clear about the whole thing. He wanted me to first ask Robert if he could come along because he is his real Dad, then he has separated all the events/presents. There are the send away things that he is making for Robert and there is the stuff they are doing at this event, and that is for Mikey. He is very sweet and wants to make sure that no one gets left out. He loves making things for people he loves.