A Day For Me

Today was mine!  All mine!!  I had the day off today and Levi went to school and After School Care (he had chess).  I felt like I had a whole day to do the little things that needed to be done and to have a bit of 'me' time.  What I did was go to the movies.  I love losing myself in a movie and not thinking about what needs to be done or what's for dinner or any of those things.  I can be just somewhere else for a while.  I heard a fabulous quote today in one of the previews;

"It all turns out good in the end, so if it isn't good, it must not be the end"

I love the sentiment behind that statement and need to remember that more often when I am moaning about what is happening now or before.  The idea that the future is good is a very positive way to live life.  Most of the time I can do that but I will keep that beautiful thought in my memory.  I went and saw Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close and it is a great movie.  Tragically sad in places as a family in multiple generations flail in their grief, but generally uplifting and true to the sentiment expressed in the preview (for a different movie).  The other concept that is very well portrayed in this movie is the idea of 'the worst day'.  The boy in the movie talks of 9/11 when his father dies as the 'worst day' but I think we all have them.  Days that will live in your mind.  Days where every sensation is heightened making every sensory input unforgettable and words and noises written on your soul.  I think that overall, we all have a 'worst day' and the degree of that depends on many different factors. 

I wonder about the 'best day'.  That day seems to have less impact, be less memorable somehow than the worst one.  Levi talks of his best day as one that has yet to occur and I hope that he stays that way.  I remember a quote (but not the person who said it);

"What's the best day of your life?"

"I don't know.  I haven't lived my whole life yet"

I can only hope that his best days are memorable and his bad days so mild that he doesn't render them any special significance.  I hope what all mothers hope.  I hope that he has enough tragedy to understand others in grief and build resilience, but that it is balanced (overbalanced?) by so much love and happiness that he is forever an optimist!