Mum, Do you think?

I have four days off now, starting tonight. I think that I will be very pleased. The computers at work have been punishingly slow lately and it is frustrating to have to wait for the cursor to catch up esp when you are typing as slowly as I do. Levi will be pleased that I have some time off as well. We are going to Australia Zoo tomorrow as we have free passes now so it gives us somewhere to go that has free rides and animals to feed. As the rain has stopped it will be a great day.

Tonight Levi hit me between the eyes again. No, not really, but he might as well have. He was tired again as he had played all day with a friend. He snuggled up beside me after we had finished our night's chapter of "Stink and the Incredible Shrinking Kid". He was in an introspective mood and that should have warned me to get prepared but I am never really prepared enough.

His little eyes filled with tears and he said to me; "Mum, do you think that Frankie would have liked me?"

Sometimes it is almost more than I can bear but he deserved an honest answer. So I said; "Yes, Honey he would have loved you. He loved Ross and Evan and would have loved to be a big brother too"

Then he said,"I am a big brother and a little brother. Frankie is older than me and he would be 10 now but he is only really 3 and then I am older!"

He has now gone off to sleep quite happily, but I think that I will take a little longer to get to sleep tonight. It is true though. Frankie would have loved his brother. I just wish they could have met just once. And late at night when I can can snuggle next to Levi and feel his easy clean, painfree breaths beneath my hand, I'll wish for a lot more ........ and cry myself to sleep ...... again.